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robbersdjh:

title: i’ll be starry eyed (for you). || pbb 2016

**the title and all chapter titles are derived from lyrics of sleeping at last’s atlas and atlas: year two compilation albums**

author: @robbersdjh

artist: @jadematica (art here)

beta: @palesuitwombat

word count: 12k

rating: pg-13

warnings: aliens; cursing (barely); major character death (i’m sorry) and general mentions of death; terminal illness; angsty as hell; mentions of doctors, hospitals, medicine, prescribed drug use

summary: phil lester is a fresh-out-of-uni botany major who maintains a garden in his spare time. dan howell is an alien that falls from the sky and into phil’s garden who changes phil’s life. through trials and tribulations, the unlikely pair form and equally unlikely friendship as dan learns more about the world phil lives in and phil learns more about dan. but when one of them gets sick, the other must do everything in his power to save his friend and his friendship before it’s too late.

author’s notes: i’m gonna say this: the pbb fic i wrote last year was shit, but i’m actually super proud of this one, and not in the congrats-you-actually-finished-it way, but in the wow-you-wrote-a-wholesome-piece-of-literature way. see, i want to go to my state’s art school to study literary arts. writing has always been something i loved, but it’s only been a passion of mine for the past two years or so, which is coincidentally how long i’ve been in and written for the phandom. anyway, i say this because i see phandom big bang as a way to push myself to be a better writer. it pushes me to deadlines that i would experience in real life if all goes to plan, and it pushes me to stretch my own abilities as an author. And with this little story, i think i accomplished that. i wrote something that i’m proud of the story i made, rather than of making anything at all.

to my team: thank you so so much for embarking on this journey with me. I know the process was tedious and i was m.i.a throughout most of it (due to my own issues), but you guys stuck through it and together we made the end result that is i’ll be starry eyed (for you).

julia: thank you so much for your kind words on the story and for being as passionate about comma usage as i am. as i sit here writing this, i’m still beaming at your most recent comments about the story (i can’t put into words my feelings about this story. It’s so poetic and sad and just wow). my one goal as a writer is to create something that’s “poetic and sad and just wow”, so thank you.

and jade: thank you for volunteering yourself to create art that coincides with my art. as i write this, i have yet to see what you’ve created, but i know it will be beautiful, as all of your other art that i’ve seen is. i cannot tell you how sorry i am for keeping this from you, but i am deeply grateful for your work. please continue to create what you do. (POST ART-VIEWING MADISON HERE SAYING THAT I AM IN LITERAL TEARS IT’S SO GOOD CAN U BELIEVE JADE INVENTED PHANART)

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