title: i’ll be starry eyed (for you). || pbb 2016
**the title and all chapter titles are derived from lyrics of sleeping at last’s atlas and atlas: year two compilation albums**
author: @robbersdjh
artist: @jadematica (art here)
beta: @palesuitwombat
word count: 12k
rating: pg-13
warnings: aliens; cursing (barely); major character death (i’m sorry) and general mentions of death; terminal illness; angsty as hell; mentions of doctors, hospitals, medicine, prescribed drug use
summary: phil lester is a fresh-out-of-uni botany major who maintains a garden in his spare time. dan howell is an alien that falls from the sky and into phil’s garden who changes phil’s life. through trials and tribulations, the unlikely pair form and equally unlikely friendship as dan learns more about the world phil lives in and phil learns more about dan. but when one of them gets sick, the other must do everything in his power to save his friend and his friendship before it’s too late.
author’s notes: i’m gonna say this: the pbb fic i wrote last year was shit, but i’m actually super proud of this one, and not in the congrats-you-actually-finished-it way, but in the wow-you-wrote-a-wholesome-piece-of-literature way. see, i want to go to my state’s art school to study literary arts. writing has always been something i loved, but it’s only been a passion of mine for the past two years or so, which is coincidentally how long i’ve been in and written for the phandom. anyway, i say this because i see phandom big bang as a way to push myself to be a better writer. it pushes me to deadlines that i would experience in real life if all goes to plan, and it pushes me to stretch my own abilities as an author. And with this little story, i think i accomplished that. i wrote something that i’m proud of the story i made, rather than of making anything at all.
to my team: thank you so so much for embarking on this journey with me. I know the process was tedious and i was m.i.a throughout most of it (due to my own issues), but you guys stuck through it and together we made the end result that is i’ll be starry eyed (for you).
julia: thank you so much for your kind words on the story and for being as passionate about comma usage as i am. as i sit here writing this, i’m still beaming at your most recent comments about the story (i can’t put into words my feelings about this story. It’s so poetic and sad and just wow). my one goal as a writer is to create something that’s “poetic and sad and just wow”, so thank you.
and jade: thank you for volunteering yourself to create art that coincides with my art. as i write this, i have yet to see what you’ve created, but i know it will be beautiful, as all of your other art that i’ve seen is. i cannot tell you how sorry i am for keeping this from you, but i am deeply grateful for your work. please continue to create what you do. (POST ART-VIEWING MADISON HERE SAYING THAT I AM IN LITERAL TEARS IT’S SO GOOD CAN U BELIEVE JADE INVENTED PHANART)
@undynepml for u
Tag: fic recs
red velvet
summary: dan wants to bring up getting a house, he’s just waiting for the right time (a reality fic in which dan uses phil’s birthday as an excuse to bring up buying a house)
genre: fluff
warnings: none
word count: 1.3k
Phan: Of Streets and Strangers
Written for the PBB 2016.
Dan discovers a street that he swears hasn’t been there the day before, and he discovers a man stumbling out of the street unlike any man he’s ever met before. Intrigued by the odd happenings that no one else around him seems to notice, he befriends the man and discovers that not everything in this world is quite like it seems.
Wordcount: 10,404
TW: Unreality, thoughts about mental illness, short mention of war, nonconsensual kissing
Artist: @fanficfanart (@obsessed-not-possessed)
Beta: @natskindacrisis
A/N: It’s finally time to post my PBB 2016 story. 😀 I’ve had the opportunity to work with @obsessed-not-possessed who made beautiful art for the story and @natskindacrisis who was an amazing beta and I’m so glad I did, they are absolutely lovely people and I really enjoyed working with them! So thank you guys. 💚 The idea for this story is based on a Weird fiction story called Reports of Certain Events in London by China Miéville. If you ever read that story, you’ll immediately see where I got the idea for this one from. It’s a great read if you have a few minutes to spare. So this is pretty different from the other stuff I usually write and was great to try out for once! Gentle reminder that this story will deal with unreality a lot. If that is something that makes you uncomfortable or causes anxiety, you may want to skip this story to better be safe than sorry. Hope you enjoy. 🙂 xLINK TO ART by fanficfanart (obsessed-not-possessed)
Dan knows the way to work like the back of his hand. It’s a fifteen-minute-long walk that he takes almost every day from his flat to that dingy diner he works at. He’s been walking this route for months now. So clearly he must be going insane or maybe he’s overworked, because there’s suddenly a new street he passes on his way home. It’s 2 a.m. and he’s tired. If he were drunk, he’d blame it on that; surely this street he’s seeing all of a sudden is just an illusion. It’s enticing, he feels like it pulls him in, calls him to enter unknown terrain. But when he tries to bring his legs to walk in that direction, it feels like he’s standing face first against a wall and can’t take another step forward. Dan shakes his head and continues his way back home, ready for a shower, as he smells of greasy cooking oil. He can’t wait to get in bed.
Fool’s Gold
Beta: @ingenue-dan
Word count: 53k
Rating: R
Warnings: alcohol, mild anxiety, swearing, smut
Summary: Fashion designer, or rather fashion student, Dan Howell has just moved to NYC and meets Phil Lester, an aspiring advertising major. Success seems like an easy task but will Dan’s ambition and trips to the other side of the world interrupt his life too much?
Artist: @fallenflorals (art to be posted) and also check out my art of it here
Author’s Notes: o wow i meant for this fic to be 20k at the most. hah. this is my first pbb and i just have to say this has been an amazing experience. just a big shoutout to my beta, Dawn, who has been so lovely and supportive. also all my love to @danschode who has been checking up on my fic since the beginning and pressed me to keep going even if i thought i didn’t want to. this fic really has taken up a majority of my year and i’m so incredibly proud of it and i just hope you all enjoy ❤
rehearserinos
rehearserinos
Word Count: 1,004
Rating: T
Genres: fluff
Warnings: language; food/drink mention; mild injury mention; tatinof spoilers? but not reallySynopsis:
“Today in rehearsals I tripped over a giant cactus and bruised my butt.” / “we both cut our necks and i injured my thumb he’s not joking” / “I called Dan ‘Phil’ today! I think I need some sleep” / rehearsal woes, platonic!phanNot real; read more here. Don’t reblog and tag Dan or Phil, cheers.
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“Today is the day!”
“Phil, it’s-”
“Today is the day, Daniel, come on! Say it with me!”
“It’s nine in the fu-”
“You will feel better about everything if you only have a positive outlook. Today is the day we aren’t going to forget any lines. Today is the day! Come on, say it.”
“Today is the day I punch you in the mouth.”
“Negativity gets us nowhere, my friend.”
Lost in the Storm
Lost in the Storm
Word Count: 9,656
Rating: T
Genres: angst/fluff
Warnings: language, food mentions, minor character death, funeral mentionSynopsis: Phil’s soulmate mark is black. It sits on his heart and spreads outwards like a stain, a stain that reminds him every day of the bitter truth. No one wants to accept what it really means, but Phil has. Phil has come to terms with it. Until he meets Dan. Dan, who claims to be his soulmate, with a soulmate mark Phil is unable to see. soulmates!au, wings!au
Not real; read more here. Don’t reblog and tag Dan or Phil, cheers.
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A/N: happy birthday @theinsanityplays – i am so incredibly lucky to have you in my life.
i commissioned my dear @pinofs to produce the most beautiful artwork for this piece, which you can find by clicking here – please reblog and give it all of the love!
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Phil Lester had never considered himself normal.
Maybe it was the sixth sense he was certain he possessed, or maybe it was just too much time spent watching television shows about vampires in his youth, but he’d always felt he saw more of the world than anyone else. Whether it be something lurking in the shadows or a ghostly trail on his neck that made the hairs on his arms stand up, Phil had never doubted that he was sharing his space with supernatural beings too.
He was very okay with that, and told everyone as much. Being friends with a vampire? A werewolf? What could possibly be better than that?
As time wore on though, so did Phil’s ideas. Between his parents and teachers insisting he just had a very vivid imagination, and his desire to actually fit in and make friends at secondary school, Phil learned to quash his sense of wandering amongst the supernatural, until he too believed he’d just been a creative child who learned to see sense.
And that was where he was now.
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